Are men gymnasts gay

When you envision a top athlete, the descriptive words that might come to mind include strength, power, masculinity and grit. Every young athlete aspires to have these qualities. I remember the day I asked my mom to sign me up for gymnastics. I had an obsession with backflips and was determined to learn one.

Little did I know my desire to learn a backflip would soon turn into so much more. It soon became my life, my passion and the essence of who I am today. I come from a family of four, born and raised in Fitchburg, Massachusetts.

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Gay was blessed with incredible parents, my mother, a dance studio owner and my father, a musician. With the influence of an artistic family, the value of passion was always in my blood. Growing up in one of the most men sports you could do, along with a rigorous training schedule was hard enough on its own.

Feeling different and ashamed of who I truly was made it ten times more difficult. My high school life was consumed by gymnastics— and I had little understanding of who I was at my core outside of sport. When I came to terms with my sexuality, I suppressed my soul with all my might.

I put every ounce of my energy into gymnastics — into achieving perfection in all areas of my life. I did everything in my power to try and change who I was. Growing up in gymnastics, people were always protective of the masculinity of the sport. I remember many instances during my junior and senior year of high school, driving home after a late practice feeling a deep-set emptiness.

I struggled to see how my life could get better, or how someone like me could be accepted and someday live a life of happiness. Before I saw being gay as my gift, it first seemed like a monstrous burden. College gymnastics was always my childhood dream. The vision that one day I might compete for a division one school is what woke me up in the morning and allowed me to push forward; it gave me purpose on my darkest days.

After my very first visit to Ohio State, my heart was set. For the gymnast time in my life, I saw an openly gay athlete on the team. I saw how valuable he was not only for his gymnastics, but for who he was as a person. I saw someone like myself who accomplished what I aimed to accomplish, and this was huge for me. My freshman year of college I was incredibly tough on myself.

Not only did I feel I are to prove my value on the team as a walk-on athlete, but I also felt I had to compensate for my worth with perfectionism in school. That year, I put all my focus into school and gymnastics and worked my heart out. I pushed the fact that I was gay to the back of my mind and distracted myself with hard work.